More 3geek glasses. Sans the long johns this time.
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After a lengthy absence, Garbage returns with a cover of U2’s “Who’s Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses?” The recording is part of a U2 tribute album.
You’re an accident waiting to happen. You’re a piece of glass left there on the beach. You tell me things I know you’re not supposed to. Then you leave me just out of reach.
love this
Joss Whedon: Feminist
Interviewer: So why do you write these strong female characters?
Whedon: Because you're still asking me that question.
When you love someone…truly love them, friend or lover, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt—you literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul. And when they do strike, it’s crippling—like having your heart carved out. It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them. What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you? That no one can love you? To have it happen once is bad enough…but to have it repeated? Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?
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Broken heart
So this is about the only place I can truly let it all out. Dave and I broke up on Wednesday afternoon. Since he follows me on both twitter accounts and on FB, it’s been hard to really say what I need to say. Also, my mom is staying with me b/c she had back surgery and can’t drive until at least a week from this coming Tues. Not being able to fall apart like I need to and not trying to have him block me on FB/twitter, I’ve had few places outside bothering the crap out of friends to vent. I have been talking in French via twitter…and if he is smart enough to use google translate, then hopefully he knows how shitty I feel right now. I’m dying to text or call him. This weekend, he has the kidlet, so while I’m hurting and needing to talk to him, I don’t dare contact him. Not so sure that’ll last past this time tomorrow (Monday). The reason why the break up is total bullshit. He claims he isn’t good enough for me, that I can do so much better. Um…I’m sorry but that’s MY fucking call, not yours. You have been great to me, outside the last 2 weeks when you pulled back on me. Now granted, I’m likely not blameless in this. I know I made some mistakes and I’m pretty sure we talked about those and thought we’d cleared them up and was willing to work on that.
I know I shouldn’t want someone who, no matter the reason, doesn’t want me. Problem is, I don’t know if I believe that he doesn’t want me. I think he has some unresolved issues from his marriage…and a LOT of guilt b/c of those issues. I wonder if he feels like he deserves to be happy. He does..we all do, regardless of past mistakes. I should mention he did this via phone about 2 hours before I was supposed to meet him to go to a movie. He refused to let me see him. I’m guessing, esp based on how our last Saturday night together went, that he knows as well as I do, that if he sees me, his “resolve” to terminate the relationship will fail. I don’t 100% believe that he doesn’t want this. I’m pretty sure that he does, and that b/c he DOES want us and that the possibilities our relationship hold scared him. I get that, really I do. I have been scared this whole time, but have told myself I can’t let my past preclude me from having something really good for a change.
So tumblr…do I call him tomorrow? Right now it’s a huge struggle to not even DM him on twitter to let him know I’m thinking of him. Though, if he’s been on twitter at all the last few days, it should be kind of obvious just how much he’s on my mind and that I miss him terribly. Wish me luck…
…some friendships aren’t meant to last forever. They carry us through a certain time in our lives before being relegated to the past. Things change.” - Vincent
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